Snoozegal

This morning when i woke up
I sat in bed letting the realization of what happened last night hit me
As i scrolled through the sms u sent me
Tears rolled down.

As i stood under the shower
Thoughts raced through my mind
The phonecall that was full of laugh and tears
Love and sadness,
Uncertain yet certain.

i asked for one last request
To hear him sing our song
As he sung, my heart wrenched
The lyrics once so beautiful and full of hope
Had a poignant sadness to them
As I realised that the words in the lyrics may never come true for us.

We agreed to hang up on the count of three.
At the count of three, i whispered that i love him
For maybe the very last time
Before he replied,
I hung up pressing hard on the button
For a very long time i pressed on to the button,afraid
Silly as it may seem, i felt that if i really released the button, i would lose him
But in actual fact i had already lost him.

Under the shower, i weeped.
Until now i do not know if this was the right thing to do
With that phonecall, i lost my boyfriend and gained a best friend
I can only hope that what we are doing is right
And wish that no matter what happens,
we will find true happiness.

'If you really love her, you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind, i'll know she is mine'

To you, i want to thank for all the happy sweet memories u gave me. i will always associate these memories with the warm happy feeling of eating an ice cream at the beach. I want to thank u for always being so accepting of me, my weaknesses and all. U taught me lots of stuff that i never knew.i wish i.. but there isnt much point in wishing anymore.i just want to let u know that u had a special place in my heart and maybe always will.

posted by snoozegal @ 8:42 AM