Monday, October 03, 2005

The unknown

The work is piling up and exams are in 2 plus weeks time.. meaning i am leaving NZ soon. A part of me is kind of reluctant especially after making such good friends here.. esp someone like ****(shall not name names here). Anyway it is surprising cos i never have had a friend who is older than me and take such good care of me like a big bro would. So for everything, I want to say a big big Thank you.. For just being u:)

At the same time i want to go home soon.. I miss my hamsters, my sis, my parents, my room, my noisy hallmates, my good friends and everything and everyone i left behind in spore. Haha want to go back where i have my mum to take care of my needs. it kind of make me wonder if i really get a job up north next yr, how am i going survive!!? cos it will be 6 long mths instead of just 4mths and i would have to get used to a new environment all over again.. make new friends, get used to working life and everything.

At this current stage of my life, everything is so uncertain. I cant even predict whether will i be in spore or NZ next yr.. talk abt the fear of the unknown. But no matter what i want to tell myself to follow my heart.. I guess this is a crucial stage where i make impt future determining choices. I know you will turn out fine.